super special...

You're always Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you

Big sign of ”Love & Peace”
When there's enough bombs to blow the earth
"all-A kids only"
Prioritize Money they own

"Mikata da yo" to
Me wo somukenagara you
"Minna to iru yo"
Watashi no kimochi lonely

But you are with me right now, to change the whole world,
the best reason why you are here
Because you are needed, it's destiny, You're never left alone

You're always Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you

”Best Friends Forever”
After bitching out behind my back
”Call me so we can hang”
Never do they pick up cell phone

Kanashii toki
Yaku ni somaru yokubou
"RUURU nante" to
Warui koto shitagaru

But you are hurting your self, and others who care,
I will tell you why you are here
Because you are precious,
it's meant to be, You're never left alone

You're always Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you

But You are with me right now, the best reason why you are here
Because you are precious, it's destiny, You're never left alone

(Miracle baby, born on the same superstar)
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you

Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
You're always Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you

this the first ed of the anime chaos head...

it is more on negative side of a person...

It is hard to lose a part of life that is important. Not really that important. Because in the way she threw me, is the same way she picks me up from the trash can. There is nothing wrong being true or frank to yourself… the people around you will just say “you must think the feelings of others”. It is hard to be true, that is accompanied by truthful lies, that will change your word in when glance…

It is easy to throw a diamond in the sea, but it is hard to get it back…

Losing you is nothing, but taking you is the hard thing.

It is not me, it is you.

I’m living in the negative side, because I’m afraid to be noticed, by everyone…

Panic

A new quest was started today. A brand new schedule is used by the year level. We experience now the delirium of the new word. Tomorrow we need to go out of the school to finish our third trial. A day of gladness to feel the success of failing and raising again, that is now happening to me.

Autism (çtizəm) n. (psychol.) psychiatric disturbance in which the subject is withdrawn into himself. It includes indifference to external realities, the impulse to find oneself in some constant situation, absence of contact with individuals (but strong affective contact with objects). In children it is often accompanied by language trouble. áu∙tist n. au∙tís∙tic adj.

Curtains over the rainbow…

What a great day, I’m not feeling well today, so most of the time I’m just staying in one place. I slept in our room after we returned to our classroom, because the math trail was done already. Then during our lunch time I slept again in our room.

Afternoon was schedule for the other events, events like the awarding, math jingle and the center of the event Mr. and Ms. Mathaba. I’m happy that our level won the 1st place. I’m tired of the doing and appearing in this event. Next week will be a new world of school, new schedule and new faces to meet and to talk.

New problems will arise. And new villains will came in my way...

Dreaming of you is one of the foulest things that I can do.

Delusion

Chaos head, it is an interesting anime; it is about murder (it was just recommended by a friend). While I’m watching the first episode (Boot Up), I realize that it is a crazy stuff but nice. Try to watch it http://www.crunchyroll.com/library/Chaos_Head.

Things that can make me happy… (Random)

1. ice cream
2. cookies
3. pizza
4. anime
5. cake
6. marshmallow
7. pasta
8. lollipop
9. God
10. black wings

I’m hallucinating of what is not real. A bad news, we have a new schedule, and frankly speaking I do not like it. It is annoying and it seems we do not have any break after every subjects. We have a random class today, we will have then with out, it is like we do not have classes this afternoon, we prepare the school for the festival tomorrow. We just have a proper class during morning. We ate spaghetti as our dinner. Then as usual habit of me, is to watch anime. It is part of my life (it is number 4.)

The next day will be exciting, exciting as running away from life and death, stepping in or stepping out.

The luxurious commence…

Previously, I’m just living in the normal way (again), then I will return to the aberrant life… new war will arise from it, to make a new disaster, to raze a new delusion, to make a new conclusion.

Now we need to continue moving in this dejected world, a world full of pain.

The most wanted in this century:

1. Mr. Mirror- a person of discomfort and anger. He is from an irregular family, broken or incomplete. He will tell you of your mistakes but he is doing that mistake also, the person who is doing the wrong things. He will act as if you are close, then if you became kind he will abuse you. He will create ways to be notice.

2. Ms. One eye- a girl that can see one person at a time. She will just point one person, with the mistake that everyone does. Crazily in love with nonsense creature.

3. Mr. No face- he will act what other are acting. He will help in the delirious life of a human. He will just imitate to cause depression.

Next, do not predict it, because the things that will happen are unpredictable.

This day is nice; at last somehow we are back to natural world, temporarily. There will be a program in the school, so therefore I conclude that it will make the schedule changed. We have a new teacher in our economics class. And we will have some changes in our elective, according to our teachers, we will be divided into two section. It seems to be exciting. We had the reporting or story telling in our English subject, and it is about Macbeth one of Shakespeare’s classic master pieces.

Last weekend we have something in our house. An occasion, that is a wonderful moments. It is my sister’s birthday. But I realize that I’m starting to be an anti-social.

breath taking moments

Realize everything in motion.

There are no real things. Everything is not true, like a black cloth we don’t know if it is the real shade or if it is just covered with a mud.

The White petals of flower at the middle of the night are falling in your front. The color of the flower will be emphasized. Even though the place is so extravagant that must be noticed.

The small things always get the attention, it will always be and it will forever.

Tremendous act of madness, to do such thing at the middle of the war is so bad.

Try it… try it… talk to the person who cause this disaster. Kill the person who holds the key to next world, the key that will activate the chaos in your heart. A heart that is full of pain will stay in your chest, chest of love, and jealousy.

Continue this to die in the hardest way.

Die in the best way to exchange your soul with a brain eater from ****…]

Be nice to me, to avoid the curse of life... curse of darkness…

Deferred…

A very hot and boring day to me, today we had our PTC, in short our parents or guardian or etc. will get our report card. But before that… we just have our classes this morning, and it is only for three hours (actually just for two hours). So during this afternoon we used it in clean-up and doing all the things that will makes us happy, and not bored. In our elective, we have a very breathtaking moment for this day; we clean the lab to find the source of the bad odor. Then that’s all. During our math IV we have a problem solving regarding our topic.

Afternoon, this time is very boring, we failed to use the speech lab because of the coming PTC. In fact I slept when I enter the room. Then my mother did not get my card, it is my sister, because my mother is busy. Then I’m shock with my grades some are estimated, but some are unpredicted. When I’m going home, I have a stop in a convenient store, I bought marshmallow. Then everyone in our house is busy. Then now I’m starting to make my homework.

Get the cord from the box

Today is the day of reporting. We conducted the reporting in our elective class today (Biotechnology). Then we played sepak (not a real game). Then during our chemistry we have a partner activity, it is more on computation, then with the answer we will find a message. It is when you invert the numbers (1=I, 2=Z, 3=E, 4=h, 5=S…) you will get a letter. Then during our math IV, we have three problems, I answered it all correct. I’m making my home work in chemistry and it is to list all the food that I ate today. Good luck to my reminiscing.

13---the hell dweller

an empty space

This day is a lonely type. The weather for this day is cloudy, and this afternoon it rained. This day is like yesterday the only difference is that it is raining this day. I went home early today. I do not know why. But I my feet just walk and bring me home. Our printer is totally outrageous. It is busted. The paper jam is not working and then the cartridge is not working. My finger is full of mess. And my brain is thinking of how to fix it.

I’m not in the mood to do something. I’m tired of it… I’m tired of thinking, tired of for everything.

hoping that you will see

Today, we did not have our flag ceremony, and I do not know why. It is like that this day is just a come back. Come back for the destroyer, just kidding. Most of our activities today are that we check our exams. But we don’t have three hours classes because our teachers are not present. I’m excited to go home; I want to do the two hours watching activity. There are new anime, and while I’m watching it, I’m very happy. The season two of shakugan no shana and code geass are the two of the four new anime show aired in the local network. While watching I’m making my home work, even I know that I will not finish it.

I can feel the distortion of the whole country. Every thing is not balanced from the smallest part of the system up to the biggest piece.

Do not let me to turn into pieces, because if that will happen you will never make me one forever. As the black neko walk over my window, I remember the black man in black in the front of the gate. You can never tell what will happen next. So just be happy for this moment…

the dweller...

One week from now, it will be a happy moment. There will be an occasion in our house. So we are starting to prepare for the event. It is like one day event. But my life is not over yet. To day I knew I good news it is about the airing of a very nice anime in the local network (TV 5) that anime is Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion. Obviously I will face a very exciting day, when I wake up.

A very fragile glass is falling from the second floor of a building. It is predictable that it will break into pieces. But there is still possibilities that can happen… … … … … … … …

… … … … … ….. it is like my life, I though my life will end during that time, because my heart fell from my chest, but as I run down to save it even do I’m not if I can make it. As I went out of the building, you ask me if that heart belongs to my property. Then I answered yes, as you return my heart I felt that you add something. As I go on now, I want to ask you did you include you concern and love in that moment of lie. Sacrifices, is what I witness after that. I felt a very strange pain and anger from the bottom of my heart. And I realize it is not my heart. And I remember that when you gave the heart you are holding another heart. That I think, the one you are holding is my real heart… … …

The events inside the pandemonium…

Rush up to the fullest. It is a very hot Saturday, annoyed and sleepy. Back to normal life. I just stay in our house. I’m alone during this morning, because everyone is busy with their commotion. Then during this afternoon we are already three, I’m with my mother and also with my brother. I sleep for an hour after eating lunch. I’m annoyed, there is no water supply, but it is just okay because we have our own way to supply our need (water needs).

I’m lost I do not want happened next. I watch the television from three o’clock in the afternoon up to 10:45 of the evening. But I slept 11 something. Even I know that I need to wake up early.

13---the hell dweller

CAPITAL "E" for energy

At last the second day of our Periodic Test is over.

Reverse:

What the hell!!! This world is such a trash, problems! Problems are always anywhere. Why it always come to me. Why always me. I already sacrifice myself. But I do not want it, please stay away form my path. I do not deserve this kind of life.

Reverse…

We clean our area for the afternoon. Since it is raining we failed to perform our activity in Physics the Rocket launching. Instead we chat and played some games. We played the blocks of wood that we need to get the colored block, but the other blocks must be at rest. (We are applying some of the knowledge in Physics).

I went home late, that is why my mother scolded me. It is already 6:30 pm. But I went home late because I helped my classmate (the blind item girl) to fix the things of our classmates. Classmates who participated the WCSU…

Now I’m under a great depression….

I do not know what will happen next…. Truth or dare…

take it or live it….?

Run away or face it…?

Die or live…?

Hell or heaven???

13---the hell dweller

T for a TRASH like you...

Today is the first day of our second periodic test for the Second grading. So it is a half-day. Our exams are very hard. But it was fun to answer. During our break time we must used it for studying the remaining subjects that we need to take. But instead we chat about anime that we like or makes us annoyed. It was fun. Then when I reached home, I’m like a spy I did not let my brother to know that I’m there already. Then when he saw he is some how shock about…

now listening to the songs of lifehouse

Do not make me cry over a deadly options. May be it is better to take the hard path than the easy path. In that hard path, monsters are anywhere, but these monsters will help to make me strong. I need to make a wise decision. And at the end of the path, I can see a small amount of light, but I’m used to live in that dark path. I don’t want to go way to that scary place. When I realize and prove that the real monsters are those who act nice, but the truth is that, they are the real horrible monster. They just blamed the innocent one. To live in the dark is better then to live in the world full of light but full of hideous creatures.

13---the hell dweller

AK ARUSAB... TAO kasi kami...

hindi ka bagay dito... halata ang iyong pagbabalat kayo. kahit anong gawin mong pagpapabago, lumalabas ang nakakasulasok mong amoy. nakakamatay. wala ka ng ginawang mabuti. puro na lang gulo. ikaw ang dahilan ng kaguluhan na ito. at habang nan dito ka, hindi ito matitigil... bagay lang sayo ang sinapit nyo, at tignan mo dinamay mo pa ang mga mahal mo sda buhay. kulang alam lang nila na ikaw ang dahilan ng lahat.

siguradong wala ka ng babalikan. wala na...

dahil wala kang lugar sa mundong ito... kahit sa lugar ng mga walang konsiyensya hindi ka tatanggapin...

13---the hell dweller

BUO kasi kami, hindi katulad mo, iniwan ng parang BASURA

Ang kapal din naman ng mukha mo, para mang husga ng kapwa.

Wala kapang utang na loob. Para sabihin ko sa iyo mas katawa-tawa ka... Wala kang karapatan. kaya ka siguro iniwan, dahil sa ugali mo. ito lang ang masasabi ko. YOU DESERVE IT... iyan nag bagay sa iyo. At ang kapal ng MUKHA mo para magpakita, puro ka naman kadayaan at kasinungalingan. At kung umasta parang hati kayo sa lahat ng bagay. Kaawa-awa ka na nga, ginagawa mo pang lalong kaawa-awa.

At yang kamay mo, ang likot, dapat diyan piniputol ng hindi na makapanggulo. at yang bibig mo ang dumi. parang basurahan.

Kulang pa yang nararanasan mo ngayon. kulang pa ang paghihirap mo. magaling ka lang kung may kailangan ka, at kapag hindi mo pa nakuha ikaw pa ang galit... Baliktad na ba ngayon, Yung nanghihiram na ang nagagalit o mayabang.

Puro ka lang satsat. Dapat sa katulad mo PINAPATAY na...

13---the hell dweller

The only shining star in the dark sky

Good luck to all of us. Tomorrow is our periodic exam (2.2) the second grading is going to end; the third grading is going on its way. We just have reviews, and discussion for this day. We do not have any new topic. My bag is full of notebooks and books, but I do not know if I can do read it.

Origami is an art of folding paper (originally from Japan). You can form many things out of a piece of paper. Heart, it is one of the things that you can make. But in this point, no one can make a heat that will love you. it is hard to love a person that doesn’t love you.

It is better to die, than from a normal life you will live in the darkness of this world. It is like you were buried alive. For me dieing is better than that. You can fell the world but you can not see it, and the world around you will always be concerned to you. and they can not be with you forever.

Indecent Obsession Lyrics
Fixing A Broken Heart Lyrics

I can see the shadow of the moon

This is the day of reminiscing of everything that I have done. It is not bad to be honest, and it is not bad to answer questions. Being honest is not a way of being RUDE.

Today we had our classes. We have music and arts (after along time of no classes to this subject). Then during our elective (biotechnology), we stayed out side the lab, because there is no supply of electricity because there is no current. Then we do not have classes after 2:30 pm onwards. We joined the events in the school. But when we arrived at the school it is just 4:15 pm, so we just do nothing in the school.

Loving you is one of my missions. But hurting your feelings is not included to my plans. What is ion a tragic story? Tragic, there is something that happen that will cause not a complete happy ending. For me sad ending is better than the happy ending, because in the sad ending you can still open your mind to possibilities that can give you idea. Even do facts do not have room for possibilities (from the movie “The Exorcism of Emily Rose”).

I do not want to stay with some one else.

It is back to school today. This is the latest drama, of the students from the break. When I’m observing my classmates, it seems that we had a one year break. They missed each other so much. And it is expected for us to be newly haired cut, but still there are naughty student. Some of us have a long hair (I’m one of them). We have many things to submit. I’m very happy to get 95 in our recitation in our English subject; our topic is one of the creations of William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet. This story is nice, but it is a tragic love story. But it is really nice; Romeo though Juliet is dead already but the truth is she just drank a potion that can cause to be asleep for two days, and after Romeo woke up, Juliet wake up. Then she saw Romeo dead that are why she stabs her self, so she will die.

It is better to die, than to be a live but your love one is already dead. So if you will die you will be together. There still a happy part, their family realizes to end the feud between them. But the sad part is that they needed to sacrifice life. Because of there is no advanced way of communication.

In our way home, we need to get one plastic bag of trash in our room, because it already filled up. And we forgot it before our break. It is heavy, but it is just okay because we are the one who are staying our room, so it is part of our responsibility.

I reach home late already, I think it is already 6:45 pm. It is dark already. When I reach home they just started eating our dinner, so still eat with them. And now I’m preparing to make my assignments.