f for flying

you can not see the future..

rushing out

This is the last Monday of the school days in the first semester. After an end, there is a new beginning. But there is a post. Just one week to go and it is already our semestral break. This is a week of happiness to start a week of frustration, and destruction. A week of path to start a new me, new from the inside to outside, that can put everything in despair. A path that no one will dare to follow, a path that death is one of the things that can be find at the end. An end that will be continued by a new start, so after death there is new life, there is no true end and start, everything is just a cycle. What is happening now already happened and will happen again.

vlu and grin (peter and wendy)

I watch the movie Peter Pan. It is hard to let go of someone special to you. it hurt so much, it is very painful that can put someone’s life at RISK. Even that you know that he or she is just looking at you; he or she can still remember you. And to think that it is hard to return the time. Even do you are in a magical world. That is why love is mysterious. It can talk with a near distance and a far distance, it is like the technology, like infrared, and Bluetooth (but there is a limit).

Not all fairy tales have happy ending. Not all prince and princess live happily ever after. Not everything has the same cycle. You can make your own decision; it is either to have a happy or sad ending. May be it is still happy ending because you defeated the enemy, but to live separated to the one you love is a sad part.

It is either to be Sad or happy? What decision is the best? What is more important you are right but sad or wrong but happy? Which is better Alone but happy or with someone else but lonely? What is the best answer? What do you want to happen to live or die?

Make a wise decision, it will affect you entire life.

A small flavour

Flavour, it is anything that will make a person contented in his food: it is like condiments to make the food salty or anything it defends to the eater.

Cinnamon (something spicy), it is so miserable. You want something aggravating. You want adventure in your life. You want something ridiculous around you. Fun of doing something that he or she does not know even small thing about it.

Sugar, it is like a happy go lucky person. He or she makes everything to a simple thing. Problems is not a hindrance, accepts failure and trying his or her best for the second time. An optimistic type of person that can live happy even there are problems in this society.

Salt, it is like a human that always thinking of the bad side. A pessimistic type. A problematic human, even do there is no problem at all. Sometimes he or she do not accept second chance because it might be a failure.

Undefined, it is the everything on a person. A multi person, it means he or she is under the three or neither.

Flavor/Flavour, (fléivər) n. the quality belonging to food, drink, etc. that is experienced through the combined senses of taste and smell.

darkness and death

The classes were resumed, so the day must be a normal and ordinary.

A story of a classmate (Shoes Snatcher):

We conducted our elective class in the Learning resource Center (LRC), because we have a seat work and we need to answer the questions. During that time one section from second year level. When our teacher checked our attendance, she decided to go, for the research because she found out that her group mates are preparing the papers and other requirements for the contest (INTEL). We go out first than the second year, then during our next subject (Mathematics IV: Calculus), a second year student is asking for a pair of shoe, because somebody mistaken, and wear the wrong one and it is our classmate, **** *** *. ******** (what is this blind item?).

We clean our part and our room, so it is clean. When I reach home it is already dark. We had a orientation in the school gymnasium for the DTi’s project for the consumers to be aware of the products, and for the responsibilities and rights.

district, a day of nothing..

It is district meet. It is regular classes, but in our case we do not have classes, because there is no teacher available, everyone in the school is busy. And I understand it. I almost stayed in our room, because while the openings of the district meet I’m at the front of our classroom (in the corridor), watching the cheer dance of the different secondary school in Maragondon, the Cavite National Science High School (CNSHS), Bucal National High School (BNHS), and the high in the Maragondon (I do not know the whole name of the school, but it is just beside of our school, CNSHS). I sleep and we played bookworm in the laptop. I think I went home late, I can not remember.

This day is like a waste of effort, it is better to stay at home that to go in the school, Very BORING. And I hate a boring life (who likes a boring life?).

Early wedding, best wishes and congratulations!!

The day before the district meet. This day is a day of everything. There are no many classes just seat work in some subjects because the teachers are busy for the research and for the district meet. Everything in this day is normal. There is nothing to tell for a great end. It is just some are confused for the schedule for tomorrow if we need to go to school or there is no classes. Because the district meet will happen at our school. Just wait for the result for the meet.

And wait for a new beginning.

It is a failure

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Today we conducted our experiment for our research (lowering of glucose in blood).

2008, 14 October, today he had our first trial for our research. And now I’m thinking, if we just did it early we had the chance to join the contest. We went to Cavite State University in Indang , Cavite .

At first we pity the mice because we need to cut the tail to get blood sample to test the glucose content. But time past by and we just laugh at it, then we are afraid again because we need to inject the solution (papaya extract white distilled water, I’m the one who prepared it). It is a bloody experiment and I like it, because I love blood more than juice. Lucky they just have two hours classes, because some of our teachers are busy. It is a nice experience.

When we are conducting our experiment some students entered the laboratory. Then they asked us if what our course is so we answered that we are just high school students, then they even asked for what it that experiment. Our experiment is not a failure, the glucose level decreased. But still we need to conduct the second trial.

This day is tiring, but happy. I miss the messy world of our classroom (IV-FLUORINE).

To form a new mess in any way

Monday, this is the first day of the school week. We just have four hours classes for today (that is morning to afternoon). In the morning we just have Physical Education and Filipino, and in the afternoon English IV and Mathematics IV: Calculus. During our English, my life is a mess. Our topic is about faith then our teacher asked to give description, and I describe it as a “mess”. May be sounds funny, but for me it sounds nothing. I have two reasons to answer it, one of it is it is the first thing that I think when ma’am asked it. Today is the day of a new mess. By the way today is 2008, 13 October; I like the date today because it is 13. When I arrived home I’m still in the good mood but later on I’m already bad trip. There is a mess on my way to somewhere else.

Friend (frend) n. someone on terms of affection and regard for another who is neither relative nor love ║ someone who freely supports and help out of good will ║ an acquaintance║…

The small delicious piece of red flesh with blood is on my hand.

Sunday, 2008, 12 October. We will attend the mass but my mother changes her decision because of my sister, because she has classes today (her exam). I’m already going to take a bath then it was canceled. So I decided to go back to bed and I sleep again. Then when I wake up again, my mother is going to the market already so; it seems to be that I’m alone because I’m not talking to my brother. When my mother arrived home, I’m done with my activities (choirs). I’m just watching some show in our television. The weather seems to be good, but still it is hot. Then before eating our lunch, I wet our cat so it scratched my hand (left side if the palm is facing me). It is just a small cut, the skin was removed.

After eating our lunch, I sleep for a moment then when I woke up I watch some show in the television. My head is aching, but still I’m watching.

Do not try to hide in the dark, for what reasons? To hide from your fears, it is not a valid reason. Try to face them. Everyone was their fear, and it is not enough to run away from them. It is so stupid to that. That problem while always run after you, so the best thing to do is to face them. So it will be the reverse. No more problems will run after you because you already kill them before starting the first move.

Black sheep to white wool

It is so annoying. I’m using a malfunctioning monitor.

Being an evil is not bad, especially if it with a cause like you need to hide your weakness, because deep inside your heart there is a portion that is good. The wrong thing is being an evil forever. Even the heroes have their darkest secret, but obviously it is not shown to the public that is why many don’t know it. Try to make other human happy to change your life slowly.

HELL

“And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.”

Revelation 20:15

HEAVEN

“And there shall in no wise enter into it any thing that defileth, neither whatsoever worketh abomination, or maketh a lie: but they which are written in the Lamb’s book of life.”

Revelation 21:27

Loving you in the hardest way is just the same thing of postponing my death

I can not think if it is still the same thing. It is hard to fool myself. I’m trying my best to do the best thing for us. But sad to say love is the one who is trying to stop the death. I want to start a new thing. I want to end it. According to them I’m numb that I do not deserve that thing. May be it started when we had a conflict.

Yes, I lie at first, but I did not expect it to reach this stage. This stage is when my mind was disoriented. After forgiving each other the past was returned, but life is an adventure we need to separate but still we can reach each other. And now we are closer to each other. But it seems my heart is tired already.

I’m tired of being a FRIEND.

A friend, that is more to be expected.

We need to be true. It is a lie; love can not live with out trust. End it, so we can start a new beginning. I realize that love is gift you do not know what is inside the gift wrap or the paper bag, to find out what inside is to open it. We need to experience it.

You can not return to the same place

Today, our monitor was returned form the shop. But just the some part of it was fix, the crystal what ever is not yet fix. So, in this moment I’m so annoyed with it. For me it is better to buy a new monitor. By the way, today is Saturday so there are no classes. This morning my brother cooked one kilogram of French fries that is why we did not eat our lunch early. Then after one hour and thirty minutes we ate our lunch then after that we sleep (Filipino tradition to sleep during that time). I just sleep for a short time then I watch some show in the television. Then after that I cooked crackers (Besuto).

the day that I missed

October 10, 2008. The morning time is designated to the unfinished intramural. I went to the school even do I’m not feeling well, so I went home also. My stomach is aching. Today is a mistake. I did a mistake to go home. Today is the birthday of my “FRIEND”. I’m sad that I failed to great her personally, but I make sure that I can give her a simple gift that will touch her heart. When i reach home I just sleep and texting my other classmates who are also excuse. We are six four because of not feeling well (Elvin, Hannah, Aira, and me) and the two is because of research (Denise and Cheli). It is raining the whole day. So they played in the gymnasium of the school. Then I slept early today so my stomach will stop, and to have a rest after a tiring week of activities.

It is one of the saddest moment of life is to celebrate your birthday without the one you love or your important some one. I’m sorry I’m not present in that day. I’m really sorry, even do I’m not present in that day I will promise that I will be present for the other days.I'm here ready to help and love you.

stop for this moment

October 07, 2008. This day is the biggest break in our intramural. Today we clean in the morning because of the Korean visitors, honestly speaking I do not want to them, because the Japanese who started it, but it is just okay. It is not bad to establish good relationship with other country. Today is the birthday of my classmate (Denise Angeline C. Rivera) and my father. It is very hot. I went home during lunch that is why I’m late, I arrived 12:50 pm. We just have our classes for two hours the last two subjects (Chemistry 2 and Mathematics IV: Calculus). Then Denise treats me a slurpee (large size). Hwe...

three days of happiness and sadness

After a month it is finally here, because naturally the school intramural (sport fest) is held during the month of September, but due to the division office care. We need to undergo to their medical examination. To avoid what happened to other school that one player died after he collapsed.

Team names

First years- Green Acer

Second years- Yellow Asus

Third years- Red Macintosh (I do not know if the spelling is correct)

Fourth years- Blue Vaio

The team is by year so it is like a real competition, because I think the third years are boastful so it seems to be they are so pathetic (not only seems they are).

Intramural for three days (October 06, 08, 09 2008), that is t5he thing that I sent my time and effort. During the first day October 06, it is raining hard during the afternoon. Then during the second day, October 08, I replaced the missing player for chess, but I decided not to serious it because I’m not in the mood to play. Then during the afternoon patintero was started, that is the game that I joined. Then the last day, October 09, I just sleep in our room. Then during afternoon the championship for patintero was started versus fourth year and third year. But it is not finished because it started to rain. So the intramural was extended until the next day. Just watch the last day (extension).

But the truth is that big percentage of staying in that school during the intramurals, is that I’m just in our classroom.

Here are some of the events in the intramural 2008-2009... Honestly I just witness the last part of the sack race (boy’s category).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DlGltM9LWaM&eurl

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkBm_UEQ1RA&eurl

We must start to avoid the people around us.

Yehey... Tomorrow it is already intramurals. But this afternoon the atmosphere in our place is like a hell. It seems to be the end of the world; it seems to be that there is a signal number 4 tropical storm. So it is dark (darkness is there, it surpass the light). But it is just for a short moment. I took a bath first before doing this because I need to cool my head, because our computer (the one that I’m using now) is in despair, it is out of this world everything is not in order I even shake our malfunctioning monitor. Then now I’m lucky it is back to normal. After this stressing day I need to sleep to face the new adventure of this miserable life.

I had a never ending life with questions and answers.

I wish the start of the end will be after 10 000 years, after my death.

Wahaha..

to be continued

Second life is the best thing that a human or any creature can have. I you have this thing you must be thankful and this time use it properly. This I just a part two. Second part, in short the end of the start, a thing that can put you in despair. In first though annoying but in the last part you will realize that it is meaningful.

Do not be afraid to love somebody. But make sure you are ready to be happy or hurt of loving that somebody. If you have failures be happy, it means that you are a real human, you have emotions. An emotion that you will realize at last is just a waste of time, effort or waste of everything.

“HELL is a resting place, but HEAVEN is the REAL resting place”

An old song for a new start for everyone

Father And Son - Boyzone Music Code

Saturday, I and my mother is the only one left at our house. So I need to clean and help my mother. But my sister went home early because she does not have classes this afternoon. So after eating lunch, we watch some show in the television and then I sleep with our cat. Then when I woke up I watch then took a bath. Then watch television again. I heard of this song in a show. And it is emotional for me (the meaning).

Father And Son - Boyzone

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It is not easy to have a good relationship with your parents, because of the modernization now. Some actions of the parents might cause the reaction of their children to think that they are not properly care, in short he or she is does not, love by his or her parent. Just think your parents still think the best thing for you. Me, honestly speaking I do not have a good relationship with my father. But in some aspects we have the idea and in that thing we understand each other. To be continued...

for one day only

There are no classes for this day in the town of Maragondon. I’m happy to stay with my family. But I can not think of it properly, my mind is loaded with stupid stuff. I want to sleep for a while. Today I give a bath to our four pet dogs and two cats. I’m so tired for this day. And I heard this song that brings the smile back. I love the message. I love it because the message of it is you want the time to come back that you are still happy with somebody but everything was ended of a event that makes me sad. For me I will end it now here.

Parting Time - Rockstar Music Code

You must feel it also!

I’m annoyed before I went home. It is also dark when leave the campus, because we had our meeting for the intramurals next week.

Let’s go away from the topic first. I returned to our room I get my shorts (our uniform for the intramural). Then I went home with Hannah (my class and seatmate) and also with Aira. Then when we are walking already near elementary (we already walked over the gate, going to the town proper). We witness how the damn children ran after the street dog and throwing materials. That is why I’m annoyed with them. Those damn children must experience the same thing or worst that that, so they will stop doing that. They do not have the right to do that even do it is a dog. Then when we are walking at the front of former John 3:16, there was a dog running and I think one of its legs is broken, and then I’m so sad. Then we enter the convenient store (7-11), Hannah bought gulp, then I asked three pesos from her to buy lollipop (ChupaChups). Then we returned to the way back to buy Tacos. Then we went home already.

Then when I reach home I’m annoyed again. My slippers were wet because my brother used it, and I hate it when he used my things. So annoying, that I can not stop myself to blame the pretenders with it! I clean my room. By the way, there are no classes tomorrow, yehey… because of the event “AlayLakad”.