I enjoy life. New things with me, and me things was lost also. But at this moment I’m just waiting for some hours to have a new moment of life. It will be year 2009; it is New Year, good bye 2008. Everything that happened will be just a memory, but it is not the end, it will be the gate to a new start. New problems again, and for the coming three month it will be miserable and full of motions. No one can stop it. Let’s just enjoy the last moment of this year, and then let’s face year 2009 with a smile in our face, think positive, don’t be destroyed by the obstacles. Be strong and be happy.
In the Philippines a lot of celebrations are happening. Ad it is know for being colorful and lively. And the longest celebration in this country is Christmas; the birth of the savior is being celebrated. And it is starting when the month is already with –ber. So when it is already September Christmas is already in the air, countdown was started until the eve, with decorations to show the celebration. But it must colorful but it is not what I expect due to the crisis in the whole world it is not that extravagant and fabulous. It is not that happy and lively, but I’m already happy that the people will attend the mass to remember that this day is the birth of the savior of the whole world. But still it was a boring. Not the same as the past. But just enjoy this season and feel the season of giving and sharing not only in this day but also the whole year. And let’s start saving our mother earth now later but now. Every second counts. So we must be concern of our environment and of our society.
Time again to read magazines, but of course I will find some article very nice. Like this one that really caught my attention.
Are you an Emotional Eater??
The following factors have been associated with emotional eating:
Low self-esteem. This has been noted as the single most significant factors that predicts the occurrence of emotional eating individuals with low esteem are more likely to grab an ice cream bar in times of stress, than a person with healthier sense of self.
Lack of “basic need satisfaction”. A person who lacks the support of family and friends may have a lower sale esteem compared to a person with a good pool of family and friends to run to. The need to be loved and to belong play an important role in building self esteem. When these basic needs are not met, the person fails to handle stress and the risk for emotional eating increase.
Obesity and weight problems. According to the Psychosomatic Theory of Obesity individuals with weight problems are more likely to “eat excessively in response to negative emotional states” than persons with normal weights.
Stress. Eating behavior researchers theorize that all organisms increase food intake in response to stress. When we start perceiving a situation as stressful, we tend to eat more. The empty ship bags and soda bottles left on dorm room tables after a night of cramming for a exam are clear examples.
If you’re familiar with the following scenarios, you may be feeding your I’m not an emotional hunger.
Negative Emotions. You have emptied two bags of potato chips and are halfway through your third. Your boyfriend must have started everything when he callrd you “chubby” yesterday. It was kind of sweet, but for some reason you just felt a bit self conscious afterwards,
Instant Gratification. Exam week is fast approaching, and bills are months overdue. You need a fast fix. The ice cream stand is just an MRT ride away. Who cares about long lines at the train station? You want that Super Double Dutch Cookie Dough Ice Cream. Now and fast.
Comfort foods. A study has shown that ice cream is the first on most people’s comfort food list. Women also tends to reach for cookies and chocolates when stress levels are high, while men would readily grab a pizza or steak.
Recurrent Eating. You just can’t stop. You are on your third chunky cookie. As you reach the fourth cookie you eye the unopened bag of potato chips in the corner. You should have opted for sour cream instead of barbeque.
So how do we deal with emotional eating?
Take time for self reflection. What are the conditions that seem trigger states of emotional eating? What emotions are associated with these? Are these any feeling of guilt associated with excessive eating? Do you restrain yourself from eating what you want and eventually binge?
Keep a food and feeling diary. Write alongside the entry the most predominant emotion associated with each food intake.
Make it healthy. Instead of eating a slice of pizza, taking a hefty serving of vegetable salad will be a better and healthier option.
Divide and share. You may not totally eliminate the craving for potato chips and pizza but dividing the contents of your favorite chips into small portions and sharing that large slice of pizza with a friend may help you avoid those extra calories.
Find another way to cope with stress. Instead of eating try calling a friend, reading book, watching a movie, or listening to music. Exercise is also a very good for stress relief-whether it’s simply running or biking, or something more elaborate like going to the gym, playing badminton, engaging in martial arts, dancing, etc.
Perhaps the best way to stop emotional eating is to identify the underlying emotional problems that are causing you to overeat. Through individual or group counseling, meditation, or relaxation exercises, you can learn what is causing you to overeat and eventually, find healthier and more effective ways to cope.
Source: Lacuesta, Vanessa Y. MD, Are You an Emotional Eater?, Health Care November-December 2008: Vol. 6 Issue 6. pp. 23-24
Now, emotions are starting to gather inside me. But I learned to keep it. Just keep it and express it in other ways (like what I stated). But keeping it is not good; we must express it, though it might hurt the people around us, especially the one that we treasure and loved. They will be affected, and they will say what is happening, and say “I’m just concern to you.” Enjoy this season. But the words that I can say is: Truth is just a collection of mendacity.
December, this is the season when people are starting to give and share. They decorate their houses of different stuffs to celebrate this very significant event, Christmas, when the savior was born. But the date it is being celebrated is a doubtful one. Everyone must be happy with this. We have our periodic exam (the first for the third grading), it was held last December 16-17 2008. Then last December 18, 2008 is the first entrance exam for the freshmen batch 2009-2010. the last day of our school for this year, December 19, 2008, it serves as the day of our Christmas party (last for this school, last for the high school life) then the day of crying moment for a classmate and a friend, for the reason that to sustain the balance of the earth we need to take different path. And it may be going to other place, such as going to other country and stay there.
We will miss you, everyone that you make happy, sad, angry and etc. you will be always in our memories. Christmas party, this is great. First and last, that the whole batch will just have one sources of food, the whole batch. It was so fabulous, the morning program for the whole school Christmas party, then the afternoon is for the batch, and then after the batch we had our exchange gift for our section, then the moment of truth. Message giving to Jape (Jasper John Z. Vergara) for his last appearance in the school. Then after that overnight, it was so good, we enjoy the time that we are still together. Enjoy every remaining time. We watch movies, eat (of course, it is always present), then midnight and morning we went to the sea shore, to feel the nature, but the weather is not good this morning unlike the early time (midnight). Even do it is cold there we stayed there to laugh and fell the moment of presence. The after the beach moment, we returned top their house, there we started to sleep, but you can not sleep straight because some of us are insomniacs (vampire for this day or night). Some of us started sleeping when we returned, then until dawn we are sleeping. Before I left the house I’m sleeping. It was so great. Our Maminezz enjoy the moments to, but she returned home also after we arrive from the beach.
I did not learn how to breathe, but I know how to breathe. I did not learn how think, but I know how to think. I did not learn how to smile and frown, but I know how to smile and frown. I did not learn how to cry, but I know how to cry. These things are sop mysterious. But still, I did not learn how to fly, so I cannot fly. Things are so wonderful and pathetic, and I’m not interested to elaborate it, and I think you are not interested also. Today is my mall day. We went to the mall to buy my necessary needs. May be it is not really necessary, because I can categorize it as extra things. But I’m happy to buy the things that I like, even do it is material. But that is life, life being satisfies by things that are not proper. How funny to stay in this world? No one can answer my question, but it is just okay, because in this world not all questions have a following answer. So funny, I did not learn how to make everyone happy, but somehow I can make them happy. Did I or I do not? What? That is life. Ruled by questions those are can not be answered. I did it again. I use again the machine of Bandai, the machine that you need to put a token, and surprise anything will just fall and you will be surprised of what you received. Better luck next time. Tiring but an unsatisfying day was my day, so better luck next time also, like a machine I used to play.
Happy fiesta to the town of Naic, It was a great adventure. I did not expect it to be like that, just say that I enjoy it, and the topic is already close. Today is Monday, it was a nice start but we do not have classes for three subjects and the other one is just a review for our long test tomorrow. It was my first to go it the fiesta of Naic with my classmates or batch mates and friends. I’m happy with it. First we went to Algerson’s house then to Jervie’s house. I’m not hungry anymore because I ate a lot of foods in their house (both houses). But it is already late, my mother just pick me in Petron (Naic Branch). They are from Manila if I’m not wrong. But I need to do my home works and still review for the long test tomorrow. This day we practice our presentation in the speech class, then we talk also about the coming Christmas party, then we already have our draw lots for the exchange gift, then I pick again the same person that I pick last year (what the heck). So I will just give the same thing, and it is also in his wish list. Excited for the coming events next week it will be our periodic exam (for the third grading, first test), the party, and the coming events. It will be a fun so just sit back and relax, and wait until that time come.
Nice day... Today is my scheduled examination in one of the university in this country; it is the University of Santo Tomas, UST (The Catholic University of the Philippines). My schedule is DATE: 12/07/08 TIME: 01:00 PM-5:00PM ROOM NO.: 212 LOCATION: ST. RAYMUND’S BUILDING. It was so simple. The exam is not that hard and not that easy. So it is just a funny thing. I wish I will pass the exam...
There’s another event in the country, the fight of “PACMAN”, he just won the fight, so lucky, he is rich again... good for him, but I do not know to this country, it won’t really help. He is the only one that is improving, improving his life.
Organization, everyone needs this, to sustain the supply of energy to stay in this cruel world. As a door closes another door will open. May be it is true, but still there will be a gap before the new door opens, and we do not know if how many doors will open by that time. So we need to think between the new doors that will open, after we closed a door, new doors will face us. Today is Friday, last day of our school days for this week, but next week it will return then I will face the same faces that I have meet.Let’s start it with a recap, first subject, we checked our assignment in Physics, that’s the way it started. Next is English Iv, for this week it will be our speech class we read two poems about love. Then elective, we just clean the bio lab, then next is social studies we just discuss over the matter of the relation of demand and supply to the price. Then lunch… we have a seatwork in Chemistry 2, then Mathematics IV: Calculus, we just discuss new topic. Then clean-up, a normal scene in the school ground.
I organize something special, I added some taste for this day, and I change some things around me. Like returning to my former chair, I’m trying to start a new way from an old way. Think of new plans to worsen the broken life of an enemy. To give and remove hope from those who doesn’t need it, and also for those whose needs it. To revive the truth from the deepest of all lie.I’m still here, in the front of the computer, typing, while I’m inside my dark room. I will appreciate the darkness that the night can give me; even do I can not find the peace that I’m hoping to be destroyed by myself. Chaos will rule over again to my hungry heart of sympathy and exaggeration.
I’m now ready to let it go, ready to use the last three hopes of life being a no one, first: sleeping, second: dreaming and the third: waking up. Nothing special in facing old friends, that will just ruin the world here artificial peace was planted. Before it is too late, let’s find the person who mixes up with the pathetic people, the person who will bring the bomb to blow the earth from its negative state.
Do not try to answer questions, because there is no definite answer. You will just waste life over stupid matters. A crying child was born to replace the life of sinful one, and I have some idea why they are crying, because they can not accept that in that state they are already a sinful one. Illusion won’t save us from the coming destruction.
Memories will stay memories. It will sink into the deep of the past. But having a proof of that moment will be a big thing to make you happy. To return the smile that was lost during the most critical moment of your life. And if you missed that moment, it is the same of losing the seventy-five percent of your life.
It is hard to accept, that the real face behind the mask of your enemy is you closest friend. It is worse than losing the most expensive stone in the whole universe. It is one of the worst things that can happen to us. It is hard to think of the saddest part of our life, but we need to face it. It is a part of living. To hide and show your emotions that can start a war inside your heart. Back to it. What will you do if you commanded to kill your enemy, then you found out it is your closest friend (he or she doesn’t know that it is you), what? For me it is better to retreat, and then I’ll be crazy with it. I almost kill the person that is part of my life. My heart will be shattered into pieces, that I won’t find the smallest pieces. Do I need to live in our memories, or still fight for nothing? Just wait for a black feather falling from the sky, a sign of mercy and hope. A new chaos will arise from the deepest part of the world, the Mariana’s trench.
Now, I know what I want this coming Christmas aside from the gadget that I want, a black teddy bear with red eyes. It will be a very simple present, but it will be elegant to my eyes. But always remember expect the unexpected, just expect the unwanted things.
A simple gift from a special someone, a simple way to appreciate the love and care that you will give to me. May be it sounds crazy that you will say that you love each other even do you do not have any proof of love between them.
This weak starts in the day Tuesday, this is normal or abnormal? Losing a friend is the same thing of chaos for a week. If we start it complete we need to finish it also (still complete), just a dream or a phantasm. I do not want to have such illusion of crazy things.
Things will appear in the way they must not to be. Hallucination will be in the atmosphere. No one can escape from it…
Yesterday I’m wounded, and I can not resist sucking my blood from it… yummy…
Things will happen one at time, but once we ignore it will file up, until we notice our life is buried to do such things.
End it now… sit back and relax. Stay positive in this negative world, but how? If it already eats your time to be happy, don’t just stand or sit, start to work it out.
A white flower that blooms in the dark time of your life will just appear in your front to guide you in your life which depression is just in your pocket.
The light of the fire from the candle will help you; it will give hope that there will be a light to guide you, in your way to the flower. And the moon,
it will serve as the witness of everything that will happen to you, it will prove your hardship. It will share the emotions that you will have during the challenges that you need to face. The scent of the flowers and of the air will serve as your memory, memory of the things that happened in that DARK night.
You're always Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
Big sign of ”Love & Peace”
When there's enough bombs to blow the earth
"all-A kids only"
Prioritize Money they own
"Mikata da yo" to
Me wo somukenagara you
"Minna to iru yo"
Watashi no kimochi lonely
But you are with me right now, to change the whole world,
the best reason why you are here
Because you are needed, it's destiny, You're never left alone
You're always Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
”Best Friends Forever”
After bitching out behind my back
”Call me so we can hang”
Never do they pick up cell phone
Kanashii toki
Yaku ni somaru yokubou
"RUURU nante" to
Warui koto shitagaru
But you are hurting your self, and others who care,
I will tell you why you are here
Because you are precious,
it's meant to be, You're never left alone
You're always Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
But You are with me right now, the best reason why you are here
Because you are precious, it's destiny, You're never left alone
(Miracle baby, born on the same superstar)
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
You're always Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
Super Special, that's why you are here with me
Miracle baby, born on the same superstar
Super Special Tokubetsu na kimi
Miracle baby, I'm happy to be with you
this the first ed of the anime chaos head...
it is more on negative side of a person...
It is hard to lose a part of life that is important. Not really that important. Because in the way she threw me, is the same way she picks me up from the trash can. There is nothing wrong being true or frank to yourself… the people around you will just say “you must think the feelings of others”. It is hard to be true, that is accompanied by truthful lies, that will change your word in when glance…
It is easy to throw a diamond in the sea, but it is hard to get it back…
Losing you is nothing, but taking you is the hard thing.
It is not me, it is you.
I’m living in the negative side, because I’m afraid to be noticed, by everyone…
A new quest was started today. A brand new schedule is used by the year level. We experience now the delirium of the new word. Tomorrow we need to go out of the school to finish our third trial. A day of gladness to feel the success of failing and raising again, that is now happening to me.
Autism (çtizəm) n. (psychol.) psychiatric disturbance in which the subject is withdrawn into himself. It includes indifference to external realities, the impulse to find oneself in some constant situation, absence of contact with individuals (but strong affective contact with objects). In children it is often accompanied by language trouble. áu∙tist n. au∙tís∙tic adj.
What a great day, I’m not feeling well today, so most of the time I’m just staying in one place. I slept in our room after we returned to our classroom, because the math trail was done already. Then during our lunch time I slept again in our room.
Afternoon was schedule for the other events, events like the awarding, math jingle and the center of the event Mr. and Ms. Mathaba. I’m happy that our level won the 1st place. I’m tired of the doing and appearing in this event. Next week will be a new world of school, new schedule and new faces to meet and to talk.
New problems will arise. And new villains will came in my way...
Dreaming of you is one of the foulest things that I can do.
Chaos head, it is an interesting anime; it is about murder (it was just recommended by a friend). While I’m watching the first episode (Boot Up), I realize that it is a crazy stuff but nice. Try to watch it http://www.crunchyroll.com/library/Chaos_Head.
Things that can make me happy… (Random)
ice cream
cookies
pizza
anime
cake
marshmallow
pasta
lollipop
God
black wings
I’m hallucinating of what is not real. A bad news, we have a new schedule, and frankly speaking I do not like it. It is annoying and it seems we do not have any break after every subjects. We have a random class today, we will have then with out, it is like we do not have classes this afternoon, we prepare the school for the festival tomorrow. We just have a proper class during morning. We ate spaghetti as our dinner. Then as usual habit of me, is to watch anime. It is part of my life (it is number 4.)
The next day will be exciting, exciting as running away from life and death, stepping in or stepping out.
Previously, I’m just living in the normal way (again), then I will return to the aberrant life… new war will arise from it, to make a new disaster, to raze a new delusion, to make a new conclusion.
Now we need to continue moving in this dejected world, a world full of pain.
The most wanted in this century:
Mr. Mirror- a person of discomfort and anger. He is from an irregular family, broken or incomplete. He will tell you of your mistakes but he is doing that mistake also, the person who is doing the wrong things. He will act as if you are close, then if you became kind he will abuse you. He will create ways to be notice.
Ms. One eye- a girl that can see one person at a time. She will just point one person, with the mistake that everyone does. Crazily in love with nonsense creature.
Mr. No face- he will act what other are acting. He will help in the delirious life of a human. He will just imitate to cause depression.
Next, do not predict it, because the things that will happen are unpredictable.
This day is nice; at last somehow we are back to natural world, temporarily. There will be a program in the school, so therefore I conclude that it will make the schedule changed. We have a new teacher in our economics class. And we will have some changes in our elective, according to our teachers, we will be divided into two section. It seems to be exciting. We had the reporting or story telling in our English subject, and it is about Macbeth one of Shakespeare’s classic master pieces.
Last weekend we have something in our house. An occasion, that is a wonderful moments. It is my sister’s birthday. But I realize that I’m starting to be an anti-social.
i'm a simple boy with a great dreams!!! loves to cut finger!!! hahahaha!!! Dieing is not enough to escape the reality, because we do not have the right to escape.
